Morgan Parra admits he's had a tough few years as he bids to make France's World Cup squad four years after starting in the final.
The Clermont scrum-half was surprisingly moved to fly-half during the 2011 tournament, starting the final against New Zealand before going off in the first after taking a knee to the head from Richie McCaw.
Since then he has been in and out of the French team, but is expected to start this weekend in Les Bleus' first warm-up game against England.
The hierarchy at scrum-half is not entirely clear, with Parra battling Rory Kockott and Sébastien Tillous-Borde for a spot, but the 26-year-old is doing everything he can to convince the coaches and has the advantage of greater experience of his rivals.
"There is the group of experienced players, with Titi (Dusautoir), Nico (Mas), Dimitri (Szarzewski), Pascal (Papé)… and then there are those who arrived more recently. I'm in between," Parra told Rugbyrama.
"With the younger players I'm like I am in my club, I share, I communicate. But no one knows everything, I'm not here to give them lessons because I've not experienced 200,000 things either.
"The truth is I've had some good performances and some less so, some difficult years and some a bit less with Clermont, and injuries. It's the same with France. Is it really up to me to speak up when I've not always been trusted and don't play all the time?
"You can't like everyone and you can't be liked by everyone. But when you live together as a squad, you get to know people better than you might have expected and find out things in common, as well as making sacrifices. For example, I arrived and said to myself that I would moan less, and I've managed it. At least ten times less than Brice Dulin!"